Doing everything I can to get through this holiday. If it were up to me I’d skip it all and fast forward to January. Doing it for my girl, who is absolutely crazy about Christmas. Trying to make it as normal as possible - it is an exhausting feat. Decorating, planning, shopping, wrapping all with the screaming reality that he is no longer here. There are so many obstacles that I encounter and somehow dredge up the courage to move on. I will and I do. I miss you Bud. Every day is a fresh start.
