Today is one of those days that I just can’t wrap my head around Parker really being gone. I know he is but they say that is how grief works. Some days you are at one with reality. Some days your brain just cannot process reality. Today I ask “why”. Actually, I ask myself “why” every day. I don’t believe that “everything happens for a reason”. Not now, not ever. There could be no comprehensible reason for a 9 year old to be taken from this earth, from his family, from his parents, from his Mama. No one could ever explain that in a way that I accept. I’d like to think that I am a reasonable, objective, intelligent person but when it comes to this, there is no logic. There is no reasoning. The only thing I can do is wake up every day and hope that one day it all makes sense.
I love you forever, Bud.