I have to look back on my posts - I can’t believe this was 2 years ago. I have no recollection of these words I had put down and I read this post as if it were new. It’s amazing what my brain has allowed me to remember, those first few months were unbearable, mentally, physically and emotionally it changed me. I look back and don’t know how I could have possibly survived this long without him. My sweet boy.
I love you forever, Bud.
September 13, 2017
This day 2 years ago was one of the best days. The sun was shining and it was Parent Appreciation Day at the fields. I was honored to be on the field with this little human. This boy, who stole my heart from the very idea of him. My sweet boy, my soul. I was such a proud Mama, always watching him in all he was with an overfilled heart.
"To change our lives, at some point we have to decide that, rather than suffer anymore, we are going to live in happiness. And the only way we can do that is to make the decision to look for things to appreciate, no matter what.
As we begin to focus on the good and the brighter side of things, the law of attraction responds by sending back to us the exact photocopy of our new thoughts. And good things begin to appear. And then more good things, and then more..."
I want to live in happiness. Even though I can not make new memories with Parker, I will live in happiness with the ones I have and hold so dear to my heart. This memory is one of pure love and devotion that all mothers should have of their child. I am so proud of him and the kind of boy he was. I will love him for an eternity if that is even long enough.